Restlessness

I had a dream last night that had to do with the impermanence of my family. Was it a sign? In this world of myth and signs and TV and law, sometimes the best thing to do Right Now can be hard to decipher. One thing I do know. I have a gypsy soul, and I wonder about it. Why can't we just sit still? Even as I type the words I already know the answer within myself. I can't sit still because... I'm not a rock! And even rocks aren't fully, fully still, now are they?

Don't get me wrong. I am absolutely in love with my surroundings. My family. These two kids, faces caked with yogurt, impeding my productivity they may be, chatting up anyone and everyone with their ever-growing vocabularies… God I am so lucky to have them. LUCKY. Blessed to have them, that they love me unconditionally, that I get to spend every single day and night with them. This little family makes me absolutely sure that I'm doing the right thing in my life, at this moment. For us. :)

But then there's this productivity... that is lacking in my life. Granted, I have been a stay-at-home mom for going on two years, give or take a few temp jobs here or there… Here's where I am falling off. I have so much to say about job searches, productivity in the modern world, expectations of my family and society, and in turn, myself!, blah blah blah. My kids' breakfasttime is over, so here ends my blogging-for-the-first-time-in-a-long-long-long-time.

Here's to keeping on keeping on this path, difficult as it may be at times, it is mine!